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2011-01-01T01:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

new year's post on the other blog (:

2010-12-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

YAY made it to post on christmas (:

went to church in the morning, then to my grandma's house (: had a good talk with my godpa haha i'm so going to do well for A's so that he can sponsor me hehe. after that, went to my mum's side aunt's house! my auntie wasnt home. so only have my cousin, her husband and her two kids! haha watched a funny horror movie together and my nephews arent scared at all omg! guys jiu shi guys. haha my mum kept playing beyblade with them too XD ohwell, stayed there till like 11pm super late. haha have been sleeping at 1plus lately! dieee, i really need to sleep more ): kk time to go and sleep (: and next week... chiong homework!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! (:

2010-12-24T21:47:00.004+08:00

it's gonna be christmas is 2hours (: christmas eve was spent having fun and bonding with my family. went to swim 20laps in the afternoon :D shiokkk. haha but i'm still swimming 20laps in 35mins! which is like 5mins slower than bff. how to compete with him next timee ): after swimming, went to ntuc to buy groceries for dinner! then had porridge for lunch (:

came home and helped my mum cook! haha it's really tiring standing for so long and cutting potatoes and washing veg and cooking rice and everything! but it was funn! reminds me of primary school (: family dinner was niceee. had wine as usual :D haha my brother bought swensens DURIAN log cake! NICEEE. icecream cake. hahaha then got dry ice! spent alot of time playing with the dry ice and trying to see if the smoke can surround the whole xmas tree XD

2010-12-24T11:14:00.006+08:00

back from batam!

haha it was quite an experience i must say (: the ferry ride was funnn. air con quite shiok. haha can see the waves cause i sat window seat :D haha anw reached batam, went to shop around the habour bay mall first. and i freaking lost my phone there ): left it on the table and forgot to take it back. then well you know.. so yeah. GONE.

after that, went to our hotel in the city. it's actually quite big! but looked like those from horror movies. omg, i was damn scared to bathe! even when bathing i'm damn scared. went to walk around 2 small shopping malls. which were seriously cui ttm. and everywhere you see people smoking! omg. even in aircon places! yep anw my mum, dad, neighbour xiao dan and her mum went to do their hair. while me and bro went to buy cds hehe (: then we waited at macs for them, because that's like the only smoke-free place we can find in the whole shopping centre! yupp, had dinner at nagoya hill shopping centre (: which was like the only proper shopping centre i think. (and is hugeeee) haha bought my sunglasses! like FINALLY (:

didnt sleep well the first night ): then breakfast in the morning was okayyy. haha the food there isnt really fantastic or what. normal lor. haha then went to shop! like shopshopshop. walk until my legs are tired. and my mum simply loves bargaining. damn pro. i think we saved almost 500000 rupiah XD bought 2 bags, a top, and manymany small stuff :D lunch at A&W! NICEEE. i loved the rootbeer! SO NICEEE (: but it's like the most ex meal we ate there. haha then continued shopping and stuff. went to this seafood place to eat dinner (: niceeee, like zi char like that. haha then played monopoly deal and saboteur with my bro and xiao dan at night. funnn! haha should totally introduce saboteur to my friends (: then end up watching robocop! childhood memory (: i like the tv in the hotel. got alot of channels! like star movies, hbo all those :D

second night i slept damn well haha then third day, we went to walk around the markets :D quite interesting. haha wanted to try the preserved mangoes, but my dad say dont trytrytry and dont buy XD but i tried some green thing. guava? haha dunno, but tasted quite.. refreshing? sour? dunno. hahaha after that, went for our massage! had aromatherapy massage, body scrub, ear candling and shower (: PAINN. but SHIOK. hahaha now my back aching. i think she pressed too hard XD after that, went back to harbour bay mall, bought more KUEH LAPIS! YAYYY my fav (: haha then yepp took the ferry back.

felt quite glad to be back in singapore (: FRESH AIR OMG. hahaha yupp, then we took mrt home hahaha! with all the luggage and food hehe. it was funfunfun :D

yesterday, bought a new laptop! like finally. i have a com(: acer! it's lightweight and worth its value! i wanna do the glass skin thingy on my laptop. if not looks damn plain can. haha wanted to get a new phone, but no nice phones on offer now. so i got my replacement sim card! then i used my brother's samsung phone. omg, it's niceeee, but super hard to type messages! now i'm considering to change phone seriously haha (:

anw it's christmas eve! HAPPYHAPPY :D

2010-12-19T19:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXIAN (:

to sum up, yesterday was a tiring but fun day!

combined schools training in the morning. ended one hour earlier because only 10 people came in the end. got a lift from coach ruyi with annabel to clementi sports hall. reached there at like 12pm when we were supposed to be there by 2.30 for our match against team armadas. so annabel and i went to have lunch first (: meepok plus koi hehe. after that, we sat there watching the matches for 2hours before the rest came.

agape vs team armadas. won 4-3. i guess i could've done much more, but at least now i'm taking more shots and i'm growing stronger yeahh hahaha XD thanks marcus for everything (: and thanks agape! really loved playing floorball with yall. was super sad that yesterday might be the last time i'm seeing some of the girls ):

stayed back for dinner with the rest (: ate zi char haha niceee. went to buy chips and koi then went back to the sports hall to watch the match between albatross and littho. omgg. FREAKING EXCITING I TELL YOU. the match was so hiong and the atmosphere was just amazing. like first time you see so many people watching a match, and so many people shouting and cheering! i felt really sad for littho's keeper. like first period kena injured already! really poor thing. but the match was super exciting. almost as hiong as a guys match. and every single goal scored was EPIC. like top net, corner, one-two goal etc. damn nicee. albatross won in the end. 7-6! how freaking close is that! really, this is the most worth-watching floorball match EVER.

albatross and littho are both good! like none of them lost any matches before yesterday. and seriously, i think jill quek is amazing. she's just so good with the ball control and everything. and her shots are like woahh. my idol (:

anw, going batam from monday to wednesday (: hopefully can buy alotalot of cheap stuff there! TOODLES! :D

2010-12-17T20:48:00.003+08:00

shit, think i'm falling sickkk. kept sneezing the whole day and feeling really tired ):

woke up at 8am today. when i slept at like 1plus haha natural body alarm. woke up DID CHEM. like omg. but i'm not done yettt. it's freaking hard! i took forever to do ONE part of the question. haha after doing chem, went to pack and organise my piano scores. omg, i took 2hours just to organise all of them! i need more filessss. yepp, after lunch.. SLEPT FOR THREE HOURS. AHH, this is bad. now i understand why i dont like staying at home. i get so bored, i have nothing to do, i sleeeeeeeeep. hahaha seriously, i think i'd better go out more often (: suddenly staying at home and not touching my stick feels weird. nvm, training and last match tmr! ohman, time really flies. so fast last match already ): i'm saddd.

2010-12-17T01:05:00.002+08:00

i'm not doing my chem homework ): i'm damn sad. feel like playing piano suddenly hehe.

2010-12-16T23:36:00.004+08:00

I SWEAR FLOORBALL GUYS ARE BAD INFLUENCES ): BUT I HAD FUN SO IT'S OKAY :D

hahaha ny friendly today. lost 1-0. AND I TOTALLY FORGOT TO FILM THE MATCH ): felt really guilty. but anw, we really could've done much more. like we could've taken faster and harder shots on target and remember our play-ups more. also, THANK YOU JOSHUA FOR BEING OUR GOALIE (: thanks alot. we really need to work on our defense. come on girls, top4 for nationals! my goal: everyone to score! HAHA :D ke yi de! camwhored abit with cat, bao and clarissa after friendly (: cat, i told you you were ah lian hehe.

after friendly and debrief, played abit with the senior guys against the junior guys. then went to bathe and lunched with senior guys (: haha after that, went home to grab my chem homework and met kim to go bryan's house. some of the guys like jx, jerrell, eugene, daryl, jingrong, jason and yongle already went there to play poker or whatever. haha IT WAS A FREAKING LONG WALK TO HIS HOUSE ): but it's damn niceeeee! like super huge. haha cool. k anw, tried doing abit of chem homework there. BUT, kinda failed. end up getting distracted and played piano also (: bryan! go learn canon in d k! i really wanna play it hehe (: borrowed alot of piano books from bryan haha think i can totally spend my hols playing all the songs.

you are the sunrise in my heart;

and here's the best part! THE GUYS ARE BAD INFLUENCES. keep asking me go watch movie with them! haha end up, i went home for dinner. then met kim, bryan, jerrell, jason, daryl and eugene for movie at bishan j8. tron. it's kinda draggy, but still a not bad show (: quite cheem. like seriously. i'm like, lost most of the time haha. movie ended about 10.30. waited for my dad till 11pm yepp (:

shit, i dont think i'm gonna do chem tonight! feel damn lazy. ahhhh, and i was still saying i would definitely finish chem tonight. oops. haha kk i'll see how XD my motto: THERE WILL ALWAYS BE TIME :D not gonna go out in a long while. so can really focus on doing work. ahh, gonna miss the seniors! really liked going out with them (: more outings! :D

2010-12-15T20:47:00.005+08:00

monday school training. tuesday school training and combined schools training. tiring! but i made quite a few new friends from combined (: and learnt a few more new drills, plus gameplay (:

main point was, SINGSONG TODAY! :D

yayy went teoheng with kim, jx, bryan, jerrell, jason, jingrong (: fun ttm. 1pm to 6pm singsong. haha everyone damn high! took quite a few videos of some people hehe, still thinking whether to upload anot. got my own one also ): karma. jason take one. haha BUT my brother's com somehow like cannot view the video. so think i'll only upload when i get my new com (:

friendly with nyjc tmr! hopefully it'll be a good match! WIN, LOSE OR DRAW, WE WILL PLAY LIKE CHAMPIONS! :D

2010-12-12T17:44:00.011+08:00

haha this is a belated birthday post (: it's gonna be a longlong update!

THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME AND GAVE ME PRESENTS AND MADE MY BIRTHDAY SO MEMORABLE :D

let's start with.. wednesday night (: birthday celeb with amelia, jh, jeremy, andrew and twins at orchard central heaven's loft. the place is not badd! BUT, i dont really think the food is exceptionally nice for its price. kinda ex. anw treated them like almost 190bucks. hahaha broke already. then we hanged around orchard until like 10.30pm then went home (: the ride back home was.. as usual.. bff will understand what i mean haha anw thanks for the presents! ABSOLUTELY LOVED THE REDDISH BROWN BAG :D and andrew's bag wasnt that bad after looking at it a few more times (: thanks amelia for the notebook and pencil case too! totally suits me hahaha :D

ahh i looked funny cause i was trying not to smile at amelia's cam's smile detection then it took the pic already -.- haha

thursday had training then went to check-in for seniors chalet at goldkist ecp. omg, seriously cheat my feelings and cheat our money! the place is really quite small ): and everything needs rental, including KETTLE. like omg. asked bryan to buy 20 cup noodles end up we only ate a few ): but anw, there were definitely problems that came up along the way, but in the end it was fine! in fact, i thought seniors farewell was not bad in the end! though it didnt really felt like farewell. more like a LET'S PLAY chalet. hahaha this chalet is like one year late! finally.. we have it (: so we took some time to play water bombs! okay not everyone, but part of the people haha then the rest either slacked around or helped start the fire.

we kinda made our own diy bbq pit oops. haha bbq was fun! actually, i just helped to eat XD omg greedypig. but yepp after bbq and clearing up, gave out the presents to the seniors and had mass phototaking session! seriously, our team is HUGE. and it's not even the full team yet!

girls' team(:

09-10 batch(:

ALMOST full team(:

haha after bbq and bathing, i really wanted to sleeeeeeeeep! but then everyone was like playing cards and mahjong on the four pathetic beds. so yeahh, no choice but to join in and try and keep myself awake! haha then went to cycle with amelia bryan chieunwei terence and kim at like 12am plusplus. damn shiok! the night wind (: haha but we kinda got stopped by a police car for cycling so late. luckily we're all above 16 :D after cycling, was abit hungry. so we walked to macs at marine cove. along the way got two kittens! DAMN CUTE! i think they are lost. like they kept following us all the way! then after eating macs when we walked back, we found them at the place we first saw them again! spent quite some time playing with them (: was super tempted to bring them back to the chalet la! ):

kk then we attempted to sleep. like me, amelia, kim, bryan, yongle, warren, daryl. haha that was like about 5plus in the morning. then i slept till 6.30 cannot tahan already. sleeping on the floor and in an aircon room, IS DAMN FREAKING COLD. haha woke up, played abit of taiti, then went back up to sleep. by then some people were already waking up, so i chased hunquan off the bed and took the bed :D hahaha slept all the way to like 10am i think. woke up feeling damn hot. then i wanted to go downstairs to count the chalet money! but yuxian and kim ask me go back up. and end up, they bought me a small raspberry cake for my birthday! :D omg, i seriously didnt suspect anything cause i was so freaking tired. really touched (: haha then my hair was super unglam shit. i think the photos will look damn bad. then we went downstairs and there was another bigbig cake for me! AHH i'm really very touched (: they say the guys cycled all the way to parkway parade to get the cakes for me :D gan dong ttm. THANKS EVERYONE! HEARTS!

kk then cause most people already leaving the chalet, end up we played truth or dare in the room (: DAMN FUNNY. i think the dirty dares are like.. not doable at all hahaha then more people left and the rest of us just played poker and mahjong. me and kim were the only girls left ): haha i played abit, then WENT TO SLEEP. with three pillows (: SHIOK. eugene also slept hahaha but i didnt really sleep la, just closed my eyes. played until like 3pm then went to eat lunch at subway :D didnt eat, cause i was damn full from the raspberry cake. hehe. after that, wanted to bowl, but abit must wait 1hour. so we went to play pool! but thennn, cause i'm under 18, i cant play ): so just sat there and watched the guys played. kim and i tried catching the soft toy but failed hahaha.

yepp, after that because kim was in a hurry to leave, we took a ride from the guys who rode bikes to marine cove. hahaha jason fetched me back! and omggg, the ride was super shiok! like the wind and everything, then no need to do anything just sit there. jason not bad woah, can control damn well. haha ohman, so super sweet la! i want my bf to be able to do that too hahaha and then walked kim to the bus stop (: by the time i went back to chalet it was already 6plus. had cup noodles for dinner then played monopoly deal with the guys. haha i was like the only girl left.

left the chalet at around 9plus in the end. AH chalet was funfunfun! how i wished i could've stayed for the whole thing ): but i'll really miss this batch of seniors. like i think i'm definitely closest to yall (: K ON WEDS! :D

haha saturday was 11dec aka my birthday! combined schools had friendly with singapore poly in the morning and we were kinda winning i think. but kai en and i left early cause we were going to be late for our div2 match. and match against nus callistans we won 8-3! AND I CONTRIBUTED! like yayyy (: really happy! it's my FIRST time ever taking a penalty, though i didnt score, but it was a great experience! i was quite shocked when marcus asked me to take penalty. haha then i scored my FIRST goal this entire season! i was shocked too! like.. i didnt expect it to go in (: hahaha happy ttm. had dinner with family at aston's at sembawang shopping centre. it's actually quite a nice place! like i've never been to this mall before. not bad, can go next time (:

bought my ankle guard (: i think i'm getting older by the day. like first was knee pain, then now ankle pain. die already. haha but yayy, i really liked my birthday alot this year (: so many nice presents and awesome company to have to spend my birthday with :D THANKS ALOT MY DEARS (:

2010-12-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

omg. i feel stressed over seniors' farewell prep. i'm saddd! AHHHH.

ANYWAY. went out with kim and yuxian today! (: bugis! hahaha went for lunch then bought tix for rapunzel 3pm. so we went bugis street and shopped! haha bought a blouse with yuxian :D 15bucks. haha had fun talking and gossiping along the wayyy. then bought sweet talk and went to watch movie! the cinema abit... GU DONG. haha but rapunzel was really nice! like REALLY REALLY. i dont mind watching another time! :D i like the songs! niceeeee.

after watching rapunzel, went to bugis street to shop again! hahaha bought a skirt for 10bucks :D yuxian bought a pair of shorts too. omgg i spent like almost 40plus today! and we kept getting lost in bugis street XD but it was fun! we need more of these kinda shopping sprees! hearts!

2010-12-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

2010-11-30T22:31:00.000+08:00

hehe was reading through all my previous posts (: well, at least since july this year. realised how things have changed! my perception of many many things. haha was just telling amelia, because i was trying to write in codes, I HARDLY REMEMBER WHAT I WAS WRITING ABOUT! like, all the "you"s. i'm confused which "you" i'm talking about XD

realised how we progressed too! i must say, it's really a gradual thing. who would've thought then, that it would turn out like this now(:

it may be 4months, or less. i can't pinpoint the exact day.

/all the kingdom lights shine just for me and you;

2010-11-28T18:59:00.005+08:00

There I was again tonight

Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered 'have we met?'
Crossed the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling
Don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck
Blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2 AM, who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
And now I'm pacing back and forth
Wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say 'hey'
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling
Don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck
Blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew, ooh

This night is flawless
Don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck
Dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please, don't be in love with someone else
Please, don't have somebody waiting on you
Please, don't be in love with someone else
Please, don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling
Don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck
Blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless
Don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck
Dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please, don't be in love with someone else
Please, don't have somebody waiting on you

2010-11-28T08:57:00.003+08:00

i realised i havent update alot ): major things that happened the past week:

HARRY POTTER ON WEDNESDAY WITH JH, ANDREW, AKSHAY AND DARRYL. met bff earlier to get present for his mum's birthday and to get present for clarissa's birthday (: then we walked to heeren and walked around somemore :D WINDOW SHOPPING WHEE! haha met the rest at cine then had dinner at pastamania (: andrew wore blue contacts.. WHICH WE DIDNT SEE UNTIL HE TOOK IT OFF. oops. haha andandand i'm damn happy! I SAW THE BAGS THAT I WANT IN CINEEEE :D happpppy hahaha kk the movie was.. OKAY. i thought the front part was not bad, and the funny parts were nice too, but kinda draggy eh! part 2 should be much more interesting (:

TRAINING ON THURSDAY AND FIRST WALKIN PRAC ON FRIDAY. omg we're dancing to abracadabra! shake butts O.O haha it was super tiringggg. my muscles were aching from thursday's pt (STARJUMPS) omg. and the sun was so hot on thursday, i got tanner (:

SATURDAY's FLOORBALL. had combined schools trials in the morning. they were supposed to cut down to 30 people, but end up they say they're gonna give some people another chance. and sooo, left with 38 people AND I'M PART OF IT! (: hahaha then had match against NTU storm. won 5-1! (: yayyy good job people! haha i think i only played like twice or thrice XD after the match, went to lot1 with yuxian and hunquan (: haha went to the pasar malam buy food and drinks then walked around awhile then went homeee hahaha looking forward to 1st december with yuxian and denise (:

i did up my holidays schedule.. and guess what! i hardly have any free days! at most 5days?! omgg, everyday is like school training/agape training/combined schools training (that's if i dont get kicked out so soon). plus all the chalets coming up! and that i'm going batam and bff's house in msia. haha omgg i'm a busy little girl! WHERE GOT TIME TO DO HOMEWORK. okay, i started. SO, time to continue and finish up slowly! (:

2010-11-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

(The lingering question kept me up 2 AM, who do you love? I wonder till I'm wide awake.)

2010-11-21T11:35:00.006+08:00

haha not gonna talk about school. other than MONOPOLY DEAL and PONNING LECTURES oops. wednesday was a holiday (: went to bff's house with andrew to watch COMING SOON. omg super scary. screamed quite a few times!

haha then went for MARCUS' 21ST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!

it was held at the Singapore Prisons' Quarters! some Lock and Key place. DAMN COOL! looks somewhat like a big function rom (: got 2 longlong tables, playground, bar table, lounge area, pool table, wii, and 2 KARAOKE ROOMS! his birthday is like so sweet la! so many people went. then they prepared like videos of marcus' life (: damn sweet. and the scrapbook of his life! really niceeee. so we spent most of our time in the karaoke room :D super funny! haha all the random songs and weird high songs XD left the place about 8pm. went for dinner with some of the girls at tampines mall (: omg, all the scary human trafficking stories! I WANNA STAY HOME EVERYDAY NOW.

okayy then yesterday, had combined schools trials again (: PASSED! haha YAY left with last trials (: haha then had match against smu kool kats at 8pm. we lost 6-5. our first 2 periods really were.. bad. but i have no idea why i feel super tired! like cannot run like that. sorry line 3 ):

小气鬼!

2010-11-15T17:14:00.003+08:00

hey girl, run away now. run away to somewhere you belong..

sooo, first day of restructured lectures! one word: BORING. haha woke up at 9.30am today! but slept really late last night. like 2plus maybe. couldnt really sleep well ): haha so well, went to school for gp and econs lectures. it was like... diaos. revision AGAIN? at least econs is going to start on new topic soon. gp is just... a waste of time (: AND THERE'S HOMEWORK FOR LIKE EVERY SUBJECT! ): SADDED. haha in any case, after econs went to find jh and akshay cause i had their phone and earphones. so yepp end up we played monopoly deal in the canteen with andrew and liangjie and chunwai also. hahaha omgg SUPER FUN! i shall win next time! (:

kk then went home! ate lunch, watched tv, played piano, went to run 2.4km! OMG. i'm freaking slow ): i'm damn sad. 14.47! I BLAME THE SLOPES IN THE PARK. zzz haha nvm, gonna improve improve improve every week! (: i have no idea why, but i'm dreading pt every now and then. haha funny thing is, i'm in charge of pt! OOPS. i hope the team doesnt suffer under me hahaha (:

OHMAN. my head still hurts from the bangs-into-emilychua-while-trying-to-do-a-wrap incident XD painnn. kk shall go bathe soon and SLACK. not gonna do work today (: or anytime soon. oops hahaha TOODLES!

2010-11-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

i want a polaroid camera ):

hahaha was just looking at prom dresses and models with bff. i feel so enlightened. suddenly i know so many designers! hahaha and from prom dresses, i went to look at wedding dresses XD quite pretty. all the ruffles :D haha interesting convo we're having. about growing taller! i'm sure my plan will work! HAHA (:

2010-11-13T21:34:00.001+08:00

AGAPE VS SIM INFERNO. 3-2 we won! hahaha i didnt play. wasnt feeling well ): but anyways, it was really exciting. first period 0-1. second period 0-1. third period 3-2! YAY FOR AGAPE :D thanks yiwen for that amazing goal! gonna win next week for you! hahaha after match, went down to BMSS for combined schools trials. haha omg, coach made me play defender, even though i'm supposed to play forward. but THE POINT IS, amelia, kaien, annabel and i got into next trials! :D yesss improvement from last year! HAPPY.

after that, went to rp for lunch with amelia and nas. then watched merahans vs kool kats match. then had training. nothing much to sayy. haha tried out a new stick today. NOT BAD WORH. may consider buying it from huiyan (: had a good talk with yuxian on the bus back home haha.

omg this post is so short. i'm tired. time to sleep (:

2010-11-11T20:02:00.004+08:00

I AM SO BORED.

i spent my whole day using the computer, watching tv, lying around and doing nothing. BORED TTM. kept sneezing and coughing. i wanna go out tmr! please let me be better tmr (:

2010-11-11T12:28:00.003+08:00

it's 11/11 today (:

EXACTLY ONE MONTH TO MY BIRTHDAY! :D birthday wishes! HAHA i have no idea what i want. but i know what i DONT want. NO BEAUTY PRODUCTS! (: i like shoes, i like bags, i like pretty stuff.... haha(:

super happy after finishing op yesterday! Q&A was hard... i think almost everyone screwed up. but i'm really happy after handing up the GPF :D went for dinner at plaza sing with jh jeremy and andrew. haha supposed to go cine to watch paranomal after that, then jh thought it's the cathay CINEplex so we went to the wrong place oops XD

so we ate ben & jerry's there (: darren and darryl came too! hahaha then went to plaza sing to play arcade then catch the 9.40pm show :D met jq at arcade omg tsktsk hahaha yepyep. paranormal is.. FREAKY ttm. it's seriously the scariest horror movie i've watched in a while. feels so real la! and andrew keep coming so close and making weird noises which made me even more scared zzz. i'm never sitting with him ever again for horror movie :D hahaha damn scared to go home after the movie..

OHWELL. today's a new day! I JUST THREW AWAY MY PW NOTES :D hahaha nothing to do today. shall just enjoy a day at home (: damn it, falling sick already. kept sneezing yesterday and this morning! and i'm starting to cough. ohmann this is bad.

2010-11-08T20:35:00.004+08:00

HAPPY FROM EATING SHUI JIAO :D

hahaha won sunday's match against Valtina Warriors! 6-5. HAPPY. hahah i finally got to play (: line 3 but still happy that i could play! i guess it was a really tiring match because the other team was really aggressive and well, i'm so small! shall train up on my balancing and control of ball. fell down quite a few times. need to take more shots joanne! played winger with amelia (: felt really bad sometimes cause everytime our line go in, we let in goals ): but in any case, good job good job! i think we played well (: yes, during the first two periods we were not at our peak (omg we did suicides before the third period) but we still won in the end! :D bathed and had lunch with the girls and marcus after match at lot1 foodcourt (: haha omgg yiwen keep calling me BODO now ): cause the other team got one girl called me bodo. i felt so pissed zzz.

anw today was a tiring dayyy. went to school to do op. finished gpp. slacked. haha ate lunch and went soghurt with jh, amelia, jeremy, andrew and audrina. AHH, tmr need to go back school to practice op. and i havent done my I&R and it's like due on wednesday ): OHNO. shit i'm too slack hahaha oops. went home after that then met my mum at amk hub (: went to buy stuff and shop awhile before going home. hahaha i made shui jiao just now! so happy eating it :D i likeeeee hahaha without prawns XD

2010-11-05T12:58:00.002+08:00

haha kk updates (:

let's start from the match against Litto. it was so freaking close! we were leading for the first 2 periods. but i guess we were too tired during the last period, we let in quite a few goals and end up losing the match. but in any case, good job agape! it was one of the best games played yet (: haha marcus treated us to koi! THANKS MARCUS. then we had dinner at mos. marcus told us alot of those IQ jokes. damn fun guessing! hahaha left about 10plus i think.

sunday nothing much (: monday... i think i went back to school for dry run. then i cannot remember already oops. haha then tuesday, went back to school for smth. i think is to practice for op. then went home, and went back school for pt. ran around the estate for about 30mins. uphills are irritating! but i cant believe i managed to run finish (: yepp then went church at night cause it was all souls' day.

wednesday had the taiwan science fair interview. omg i'm part of the 9 shortlisted in singapore! cool. hahaha they're gonna choose 2 to go taiwan. i dont think i'll get it. it's like, my interview was so short. ohwell (: it was a good experience afterall. had the interview at MOE main building i think. then i was so dumb i dunno how to use the lift! too high-tech for me haha but it's damn cool. like the lifts have no buttons. then you just press which floor you wanna go to, then they'll tell you go wait at which lift. then the lift will auto bring you to the floor. cool right!

hahaha yeah then after that, went home and got my swimming stuff then went to meet jeremy, jh and andrew at khatib. met shern at yck mrt haha (: so yep swimming! was funny. haha we wanted to swim 20 laps. end up, we swam FOUR. haha the guys swim super fast omg. nvm i win andrew i dont care (: haha we all won andrew, so andrew owe us all KOI (: haha after that, went ion orchard to meet darryl for dinner. FISH AND CO. i treated cause i owe all of them a treat. haha omg embarrassing to go out with them. first is break glass, then is drop fork, then dunno what else haha the guys so mean to andrewww. but anw after dinner, went home (: didnt watch movie in the end.

thursday was a long dayy. overslept in the morning, so was late for pt. owe amelia 100 push-ups ): haha then had principle's contact. then pw. went to audience for amelia's group. then went for exco meeting with the teachers (: really good exco meeting i think. and i'm damn happy oops. i'm in charge of pt from now onwards! HAHAHA omg, i'm so motivated to run now :D haha after exco meeting, went to do pw again (i kinda no time to eat lunch). so did until like 4pm like that. then went for training till 5pm. went home, bathed and went to causeway point.

had dinner at seoul garden with jh, andrew, jeremy and cw. andrew's treat! THANKS ANDREW (: haha wah eat until damn full. haha then we went arcade :D funfunfun. very long never go arcade already! cw left at 9plus. then the rest of us went to take neoprints! so funnyy omg. gay pictures! and retarded ttm. haha after that, we went to buy chips and drinks and went to find somewhere to camp. talked till 11plus then caught one of the last trains home (:

i love simple outings like these (:

2010-11-04T00:10:00.003+08:00

i really dont feel like blogging these few days about what happened (: just have this damn sian feeling. maybe i'll update some other day. but anw, today i'm happy and feel.. loved. haha (:

i am not the kinda girl, who should be rudely barging in on a white-veiled occasion.
but you are not the kinda boy, who should be marrying the wrong girl.

2010-10-31T00:36:00.005+08:00

TAYLOR SWIFT'S NEW ALBUM IS SUPER NICEEEE. if i cant find the downloads, i'm gonna buy the album (: this is such a worth it album!

Taylor Swift - Back to December(:

2010-10-30T09:26:00.003+08:00

i really regret taking econs instead of music.

everyone seems so sad that they didnt do as well as expected. but here i am, feeling sad that i have to drop my subjects. cried in school after econs paper. i think i'm so dead. felt much better after amelia, audrina, andrew, junhao, jasmin and people comforted me (: thanks a lot!

but once i got home. everything is just badd. i expected it. but not so bad. i havent cried for sooooo long in a really long time already. all the nagging and stuff, saying how smart gor gor is and how come i'm like that. really couldnt take it. cried until i slept.

and after 12 hours of sleep, my eyes are freaking swollen.

i dont even wanna mention my promo results. neither do i wanna talk about my future or even next year. just wanna get through day by day.

2010-10-28T18:18:00.004+08:00

NEW WEEEEEEK! :D

monday had op dry run. it was okayyy. alot more to improve on though (: haha then rushed to print out wr and bind. but anyways, went to watch The Child's Eye at causeway point with junhao, andrew and chunwai. IT WAS QUITE SCARY! but the storyline is really quite cool (: kinda boring at the start, but the twist in the story is niceeee. yepyepp then took train home with bff. tuesday, handed in wr (: FELT SUPER RELIEVED! hahaha thennn, stayed back for awhile to practice op and stuff. went home quite early that day (:

wednesday, went back to school to do our op slides and practice again. haha finished quite early too, had lunch in school then went home (: left house at 5pm to go NTU. friendly with NTU! hahaha saw coach wee wee again! and he forgot what he owe me ): hahaha but nvm, i reminded him XD ONE DAY, we're gonna play together again! :D

today, went back to school for audience duty. then went through our op stuff again. had lunch in school then hanged around until about 3pm. met up with yuxian, sijia and denise haha talked awhile then denise left. then the 3 of us went to the store to like, touch the balls and play awhile. waited for bff and andrew to finish their pw then took bus with bff home. hahaha on the way home we decided to go get durian pancakes from amk hub :D DAMN NICEEEE. very long never eat already. yepyepp (: happy now haha.

omgg, dry run 2 tomorrow. and getting back results! omg, please let me pass all my papers ):

2010-10-24T14:34:00.005+08:00

i still think park jung min is soooo cute (:

shall do a quick update (: okay tuesday i was really sad over pw. like really really. my wr's damn screwed. wednesday, stayed in school till 9.30pm to do pw! thursday, realised our pw's still screwed. so we stayed back again to edit. stayed till about 5.30 then went for agape training at nus eusoff hall (: amelia and i got lost trying to find the hall. hahaha but end up we were the earliest XD eusoff hall is much bigger than kent ridge hall! but the floor not very nice ): haha ohwell, training was tiringg but fun. had camwhoring session after that!

fridayy went back to school to meet mr tan about our wr again. stayed in school from 9am to 5.30pm trying to edit wr. then went for steamboat dinner with junhao, jeremy, amelia and chunwai (: NICEEEE. hahaha very long never go out with them already. had venezia icecream after that. saturday's match against merahans! we won! 5-4. haha it was super exciting and close omg. didnt get a chance to play at all cause the score was simply too close and the merahans really come in with full court pressure! saw coach sara there haha it's funny to hear him shouting at the girls and not me now OOPS hahaha.

then went home after that and went yunwei's house at night to do wr. did from 7pm to about 11.30pm. damn lateeeee. AND IT'S STILL NOT DONE. super screwed la.

gonna go back yunwei's house later again to dooo. MUST finish today! JIAYOUS JOANNE DONT GIVE UPPP :D looking forward to tuesday (: esplanade with audrinaaaa. andand wednesday hopefully having singsong/movie session with my girls :D

Oh Lord, please help me to remain calm and do what I have to do well.

2010-10-19T20:39:00.001+08:00

i cried. i'm tired. it's time to sleep. pw, i hate you so much for making my eyes red.

2010-10-17T10:29:00.003+08:00

i think my thinking is VERY weird.

friday was farewell assembly. didnt prepare anything for anyone because i really dont think it's farewell yet! then was just reading jx's and bryan's blog. ohmann like so touching like that. i do have alot of things to say. just that, i cant say it here (: it will only be proper farewell during seniors' farewell. that's when i'll write longlong notes for everyone. I PROMISE. hahaha (:

things have changed and how i wish time can turn around and maybe it might not become like this? you're not the only one feeling this way. but it's just *does awkward turtle* AH i dont wanna think about this.

yesterday's match against femme fatales. guess what. CLEAN SHEET! 10-0 :D hahahaha okayy i didnt play though cause 2 people cant be registered. 20max. so yeahh sat out for yesterday's match with amy. but it was a really good match put up! the goals were EPIC. hahaha so exciting the last period :D GOOD JOB AGAPE!! and thanks weichen, junching, joe, kaixiang and joshua for coming down to watch (: COME NEXT WEEK. against merahans woahhh. hahaha

anw after match, bathed and went to buy koi and had lunch :D lunch was super funny! CAT still more epic. spill drink XD then we had fun showing each other our ez-link cards and IC! OMGG CAPTAIN! yours is the most epic XD SO CUTEEEE HAHA cat's deal damn good hahaha yayy buffet and kbox with agape soon :D CANT WAIT!

2010-10-15T21:49:00.004+08:00

i'm sadded.

bio mcq.. failed terribly.
chem mcq.. marginal fail.
ogl.. "I'M NOT GOING TO RECOMMEND YOU" FINEEE BLEAH.
econs question 2.. "not very well done"
muscle aches everywhereeee.

T.T i'm really very saddddd.

2010-10-12T19:48:00.003+08:00

omgomgomg taiwan international science fair!

haha doubt i'll get it ): only 2 in the WHOLE singapore can goooo. and i think it clashes with orientation next year. OHWELL, now i just need to apply and go for the interview (: wait till i really get it, then we'll talk about schedule again haha :D

PW DAY ONE.

PW WORKSHOP WAS FUNNY!! omgg the speaker is super gay hahaha should i go add him on facebook? he's so funnyyy. then had another lecture in hall. THAT, was damn boring. and then lunch and pw again. did wr in the library. haha it was actually quite entertaining XD amelia's group came after their pw workshop. haha amelia and i kept laughing at the jokes in readers' digest XD and andrew was just... funny. hahaha then went home (:

PW DAY TWO TMR. hope it'll be funnn!

damn it. stupid cramp. MY LEGS AND ARMS ARE CRAMPING. and it's so baddd, that i cant walk straight. and this morning, i almost fell off the bed OOPS hahaha XD EVERYONE WHO IS STRESSED UP, EMO, WHATEVER. CHEER UPP (: things will get better hahaha.

2010-10-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

haha was just researching about careers and scholarships.

didnt really find any scholarships. but at least i sort of know what i wanna do in future (: got quite a few paths to take haha XD

1st: roehampton psychology - roehampton music psychology
2nd: nus psychology - roehampton music psychology
3rd: nus psychology - music therapy (uni of melbourne)
4th: nus music - music therapy (uni of melbourne)

i'm quite sure i wanna do psych and music in future (: SO THERE.

2010-10-11T17:48:00.002+08:00

WOAH, okay training last night was bad/good. hahaha only 7 people came. then add marcus and jq = nine. wahhh i think my stamina sucks. warm-up run like a few rounds around the valhall court and i'm like damn tired already! DAMN.

thennn, we had to do lobs. so like, each person take turn must lob 10 times from one end to the other end of the court. then the rest must do pt. like push-up position hold there, crunches, squats, high-knee, quick feet and got one just hold the stick and keep turning in front of you (WAH ARMS ACHING). hahaha omgg i felt so bad to the rest, they did crunches when it was my turn to lob. damn hardddd. i took damn long, considering the fact that i dont really know how to lob. but marcus and jq very nice and patient. end up i can hit 10 times! wahh, felt damn happy.

haha then played games. which was tiring as well! stayed till about 9.30pm. then went for "dinner" with amelia, jq, marcus and eleanor. tiringgg, but fun (: omg took train home with jq. haha he's quite funny in a way. and OMG, I NEED TO CHANGE MY STICK AGAIN! i think i wanna go try a fatpipe stick. who wanna buy from me my pink stick?? :D i sell cheap cheap hahaha (:

today had games fest. played handball. I BARELY TOUCHED THE BALL -.- haha terra was third for handball (: haha ahhh just now didnt feel the effect of the muscle aches. NOW, i feel it. like my calves and arms are aching like shit ): ahh tired. haha XD

2010-10-10T16:03:00.005+08:00

MANY MANY THINGS TO UPDATE! :D

mahjong on thursday! with garry mag, amelia and andrew. they came over to my house (: haha I LOST OMG. even though i won quite a few. but those i won all 1 tai or 2 tai only. garry and amelia win all the big ones damnnn. haha then andrew lost the most! had pizza for dinner then amelia and i went for agape training. we were lateeee but we met yiwen and the rp ppl at the mrt. so since the captain's with us, we're safe XD trained till 8plus and went home after training.

friday i woke up damn late. like 11am haha then spent my day watching videos! GO WATCH HEARTY PAWS! omggg it's damn sad! and touching. i cried even more for this than 10 promises to my dog. seriously mann i love this kinda movies (: really worth watching!

then went for halloween at night safari and zoo with amelia, junhao, akshay, jeremy, and chunwai! i thought last year was scarier for the tram ride. hahaha but i still screamed quite a lot. AMELIA SCREAMED MORE XD quite funnn. but we ended quite early this year. and i kinda "offended" alot of the people there OOPS. hahaha they kept staring at me with their ghostly eyes tskk.

saturday didnt do much at home.. left house at about 4pm for clementi sports hall. first div2 match against panthera fc. lost 8-2. quite sad la, i mean like i really wanted to win the first match. but i know i really wasnt up to standard. i didnt really dare to run cause the floor was SUPER slippery. seriously no grip at all. then had a few shots on target but just didnt manage to go in. amelia and i played the first period only. let in 2-0. siannn. i really wanna score! next match! :D i must say, i've learnt quite abit from this match. I NEVER KNEW THE GOALIE CAN SIT OUT TOO! then play with 6 men on court hahaha we did that in like the last 30seconds of the game or smth. damn cool.

after match went for team dinner with the rest at mos burger. damn funny, split into the young people and old people group. young means below 20 XD then marcus' stories damn lameeee hahaha omgg stayed until mos closed. which was almost 11pm. then took a bus home (: i swear the bus was speeding! i reached home in 35mins HAHA

kk i really have to improve my skills and stamina now. must face all the problems and my fears on court. MUST SHOW JQ I CAN DO ITT! hahaha zzz dunno why last night couldnt sleep. i end up tossing and turning till 5.30am. think i only fell asleep at 6am.

alot of things on my mind these few days.. i'm really quite scared for my promos results. and i'm dreading school just thinking that it'll be hardcore pw. i just want everyday to be floorball and piano. i'm loving piano now (: cant wait for training later! :D

2010-10-06T18:15:00.003+08:00

such a pretty picture right! omg, if any guy can grow such a rose (which i dont think there's such a person) i'll marry him XD hahaha

today was shopping dayy. okay not really. just eateateat alot today :D

went to eat dimsum at orchard with my parents! SHIOK. hahaha xiao long bao wheeee haha damn nicee. then shopped around wisma, ion, then went back amk. didnt buy anything, mainly window shopping :D but it was fun! hahaha kk looking forward to training tmr night! LOSE THOSE FATS :D

2010-10-05T21:28:00.002+08:00

PROMOS ARE OVER!!

the sweet taste of freedom :D

so, bio was REALLY BAD. never have i felt so depressed over bio before! then maths was okayy. and chem was TERRIBLE. there's just not enough time omg! i'm really quite scared to get back my results. i dont wanna drop any subjects! worse still, i dont wanna retain. please just let me promote ):

ohwell, went to my aunt's house today! hahaha played with my nephew. funnn. tmr gonna go shopping with my parents and eat dimsum! then thursday most prob playing mahjong? haha and friday's halloween at night safari! omggg so scary.. people, better not scare me okay!

hahaha and saturday! FIRST DIV2 MATCH! WHEEEEE omg but most of the matches are like at clementi sports hall or cck sports hall. damn farr cann. this sat it's like clementi sports hall at 6pm! hahaha got a few matches at 8am, and some 8pm omgg. i cant wait! :D though i havent trained since damn long agooo. div2! it's now or never (:

2010-10-02T11:12:00.002+08:00

OMGOMOMG.

i was very happy yesterday after gp and econs were over (:

it was the first time i was SOOO scared for an exam! like really. i could've cried on the spot omg. but the papers weren't done so well either.

gp essay i think i chose the wrong question, end up nothing much to write i think i'm screwed. then for compre, it wasn't so badd. maybe except summary and AQ. AIYA but my language has always been baddd. so well yeahh.

then econs was better than cts definitely, but still quite bad! case study was surprisingly okay except the last evaluation question. then for essays, i think i chose the wrong question again! siann that one sure get like damn low. the other essay i thought was okay (cause it's almost the same as the revision lecture!) but thennn, today i realised, i didn't add in a lot of things! OMG. now i'm scared to get back my papers T.T

OHWELL, putting that aside. time to work hard for the sciences (: seriously, i think they might be easier to score. 4 more days to freedom! :D

2010-09-29T15:33:00.005+08:00

STUDY DAY!

hahaha omg went to mug with bff yesterday. it seemed quite productive but dunno why time pass so fast then we didnt do much in the end O: omg better than staying at home though. haha if both of us stayed at home, sure go and sleep one XD

i finally caught up with all my work. all the undone tutorials and stuff (: but now, i have to chiong MUGGING for exams. shitt, 2 days to gp and econs. and i havent started. what is wrong with me this year! AHHH. this is badd.

JIAYOUS JOANNE. one week from now, you're free! FLOORBALL, SHOPPING, and HALLOWEEN! :D

2010-09-26T19:29:00.002+08:00

i love vintage pictures (:

HM, so.. i've finally caught up with my work! like sort of. haha (: am a happy kid. somehow it doesnt feel like promos are coming! damn it. i'm looking forward to the 3 days when promos are over and i have no schoooooool YAY :D

2010-09-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

HAHA, i'm like jumping around livejournal and this blog (:

somehow, i prefer this blog more. it looks nicer and have more memories here haha good or bad. i shall use livejournal to block secret posts :D and maybe i'll use back this blogg.

so school hasnt really been good. have been trying to catch up with the workload ever since i came back! (even though amelia sure say i'm damn slack) hahaha but i got try okay! haha yeahh tiringg. nvm, just 2 more weeks :D

2010-09-01T08:16:00.002+08:00

i shall switch to livejournal for awhile (:

http://shinelove.livejournal.com

2010-08-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

why is my blog always invaded. well, if you have any comments please just keep it to yourself thank you. this post is dedicated to you.

CAN YOU LIKE SCREW OFF. you know, i really would leave if i want to. but NO, i'm not leaving because i still care for this team. EVEN IF I'M NOT ANYTHING. you are some irritating bastard and you should just f off because i'm so freaking pissed off (: THANK YOU.

and fyi, i am not jealous of amelia. she is my bff and i respect her decisions. so you can just go hide in some corner and bury yourself so that your name will never appear on my blog ever again. THANK YOU.

2010-08-29T22:02:00.001+08:00

i realised i've forgotten how a team should be like.

didnt really elaborate much on agape training yesterday. intensity was low, drills were slow, everyone was just sian and tired, coming late for training. marcus got angry and disappointed. he questioned us, why were we there that day. who do we play for. why he was making us run. all those questions. everytime we answered, i guess it was not satisfactory. we ran. and we ran again and again. then he said, those who cant run anymore please get out. by all means get out, i want to see how many of you can remain there. by then i was really sick, the flu getting into me. but because of what he said, i felt determined to fight on, and to finish the runs.

then, he gave us 20mins to cool down and talk. we can choose to talk for 19mins and keep quiet for 1minute. or talk for 1min and keep quiet for 19mins. it's how we want to make use of the time we had. we talked it out, and we became closer in a matter of 20mins or more (: i guess this is what a team should be like. talking it out, being straightforward. we all joined agape, not because we were forced to, it's because we love floorball. we love the sport, we want to play as a team somewhere, to achieve something. during training, we have to forget all out troubles and give it our best for ourselves, for the team, for coach. it is unfair that he gives his 100% when we only give our 20%. i admire marcus, he can really make us think and reflect.

and as i said, lunch was enjoyable (: wonderful team lunch. this is what i call a team.

isnt it weird if we cannot speak our minds during training, we fool around during trainings, waste time dilly dally, complain this complain that. it's not a team if we hang out only in our cliques. what about biasness. it isnt a team celebration if it was not planned by the team together. and if anyone of us is missing. this team is falling apart, i can feel it. i'm going to give it one last try, i want it to work. i miss being in a team. i miss training hard and playing hard. now just sucks. it's like i'm going for the sake of going. i'm committed and i'm obliged to go. floorball is no longer fun if we do not play our best and play as a team. it is a team sport. everyone is important.

two years ago, i joined floorball. training was tough. very tough. but every training was enjoyable. mer was a good captain. the whole team was supportive and awesome. then comes training with karen. i admire her as she can command the whole team to listen and to respect her. tough training, but i kept up with it to improve myself so that i could be something in nationals when i could play. trainings were fun with all the gossips and stuff. when i was captain, i made it a point to incorporate fun during training and to make sure training standards did not drop. and now, i'm really disappointed. i cant believe in the short 3 years that i've been in nj, it changed so much. the emotion, and feeling when i go for trainings. it's different.

dear girls, let's buck up. i'm not using team as of now because we are definitely not a team. not YET. and i believe we will become one soon (: i'm just waiting for that day to come.

2010-08-28T18:08:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BFF JUNHAO! (:

hahaha awesome birthday celebration yesterday night! went his house at about 6pm then we played wii tennis while waiting for the rest to come. 10 people came! including junhao. haha got me, amelia, andrew, akshay, chunwai, jeremy, darren, darryl and lam! it was funnnn. hahahaha i love the ginger biscuits at his house! :D that time jeremy and i finished the whole container oops haha. ohohoh, damn funny! here's what happened!

jh's grandma was talking to jh in chinese.
lam: (asks akshay) what is she talking about?
akshay: GRANDMA.

HAHAHA omggg both of them damn funny! akshay heard as "who is she" and lam is funny cause how would akshay understand chinese! HAHA XD funny funny.

sooooo, went down to eat zi char for dinner :D JUNHAO'S TREAT! thanks alot babe! (: haha we ordered damn alot. plus 2 crabs. end up $158! haha dinner was funnyyy. played truth or dare while waiting for the food to come. haha and andrew's jellyfish thingy is epic! DAMN FUNNY. hahahaha we all couldnt stop laughing. especially amelia! hahaha XD

went back up to have wii tournament (which was never finished in the end) hahaha and cut cake for junhao! funfunfun (: my cake cutting skills improved. hahaha thanks for buying the strawberry shortcake andrew :D haha it's actually quite niceeeee. then lam left after awhile. omggg then comes the funny part! HAHA andrew playing wii is the most epic thing on earth!

andrew: omg, i think after today i can go join olympics!
darryl: what olympics, PARAlympics la!

hahaha funnyyyyy. couldnt stop laughing XD still got more!

darryl: why you hit backwards?
andrew: cause the person is at the back, so must hit the ball forward.
darryl: omg you might as well stand behind the tv play!

haha omgg darryl is damn lame cann. but it was super funny! then darryl and andrew played the scissors paper stone then slap hand game. haha andrew's expression was epic. he was damn scared of darryl when he lost! like, damn funny! hahaha and andrew started dancing as forfeit. the video's going up on facebook laterrr hahaha.

yepp left jh's house at about 11pm or so. damn funnnn :D we should have more simple outings like this haha (:

today's agape training was quite badd. dunno why, intensity dropped. and i realised i'm still sick. when i started running it's like quite bad. alot of phlegm. then today i guess coach was quite disappointed in our standard. so he made us do suicides. i think we did more than 10? lost count after awhile. tiringgg. haha lunch after training was funny too! OMGG so many interesting facts about the team (: funnn. hahaha then went home yepp.

i feel like sleeping now. shit i havent done anything XD

& there are so many questions left unanswered. i have no idea what you are thinking.

2010-08-26T21:16:00.001+08:00

YOG's overr. and it seemed like it went past so quickly! ohmann i'm sadd. should've gone to watch the closing ceremony! it's quite nice :D

2010-08-25T20:11:00.002+08:00

UGH I FEEL SAD FOR ISABELLE AND CLARENCE!

was watching the quaterfinals for mixed teams tabletennis and singapore lost to japan. it was SOOOO close! AHHH ): i'm really really really damn sad. bleahh. first isabelle lost to the china girl in the finals. then now this T.T i really admire isabelle! she's damn pro and calm on court. and clarence just looks cutee omg. totally man! ): i'm sadded.

YOG IS COMING TO AN END. there goes my tv spree. haha have been watching yog like everyday since tabletennis started :D i'm actually quite patriotic! i want singapore to winnnnn. haha ohwell, joseph asked me today if i wanted to watch yog closing ceremony with him. but nahh got econs consol leh! haha and besides, my night is reserved haha XD

stayed back after school today to do up the floorball board (: i must say, it's really nice now! like really really! floorball people are so creative please. hahaha andand i finally found joyy :D it was fun doing up the board! and we're gonna set up this archive column in the floorball cupboard. there's gonna be the "list of ex-captains" thingy. hahaha and photos in the cupboard! :D i suggested. hahaha (:

really quite happy today. eom handed in. chem spa over. like omg YAY (: tonight, let me slack thanks (:

2010-08-24T14:50:00.003+08:00

i'm kinda bored at home (:

woke up at 8.30am todayy! thennn i attempted to do my eom. it's due tmr -.- haha note: ATTEMPTED XD then i started abit of the issf powerpoint presentation. thenn i did bio notes. omg okay i didnt do much today. hahaha i like candies (: candies make me happy.

2010-08-23T12:06:00.004+08:00

i'm homeeeee. just went to see doc. throat infection! i knew it. i knew it since saturday. omgg 2 days mc! for today and tmr. i shouldnt even have gone to school today. was comtemplating whether to go anot. but i still went to pass amelia her notes and went for dance pe. okay la, at least i got back my eom so that i can edit today while i'm sickk.

kk i shall go sleep (:

2010-08-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

my head hurts. oh please, let me get well by tmr!

2010-08-22T10:16:00.002+08:00

flu plus sorethroat. soon to be cough plus fever ):

anw did i mention, promos is from 1st october to 8th october!! andand my papers are like 1st oct, 4th oct and 5th oct! means from 6th to 8th i have no schooool hahaha so cool. but nahh i dont want promos to come! i'm so unprepared luh omg. need to start mugging soon plus mugging sessions!

kk yesterday's training, quite few people came i must say. most of them are sick. coach didnt come cause he was sick too! but miss wong came though (: haha i think she's good. like she'll point out our mistakes and teach us and scold us and push us. so much more than coach please. and games was good :D i actually felt kinda tired. might be cause i'm abit sick too.

haha anw after training was epic. yuxian pam amelia and i went to bathe. then we thought there was no one in the toilet, so we happily talk and scream and gossip. AND GUESS WHAT. miss wong was in there too! omgg so embarrassing can. i was screaming in the showers cause the water was damn cold, then i bet she heard everything i said. omgg all the stupid and retarded things! T.T i'm never gonna scream anymore in the showers (:

took 169 to amk hub with yuxian and pam. it was loooong, but nice to sleep! hahaha met kim there for lunch! haha supposed to have our mugging session. as in me yuxian and kim. but then kim had to go off for some last min yog stuff. so after lunch, we all went home hahaha and i suppose all of us went home, first thing - SLEEP. i slept for 2hours! haha but still felt damn sick. then at night slept quite early too.

woke up this morning at 8am. did finish cancer tutorial (: siann, i still feel quite stressed for promos. and there's like so many things to do, i really feel like just dont care and fail everything. and i cant fall sick now! cant afford to miss anymore lessons (though i dont mind haha) ohwell, jiayous joanne! :D

p.s. i locked my phone (: NOW NO ONE CAN STEAL MY PHONE ANYMORE! HAHA XD

2010-08-20T22:31:00.008+08:00

& we could spend all night under the stars;

wednesday(: the day i went home early for once! hahaha it's the earliest i've gone home in a longlong while now.

thursday was funnn, we had an 02 party during GC cause mr tan is in india! funfunfun hahaha and we decided we shall form a band next year and join talentime :D i play keyboard, audrina and yunwei violin, darren drums, darryl electric guitar, lam acoustic guitar! haha then jh can play the triangle and amelia and andrew can sing! OOPS hahaha.

and today was nice (: the weather was nice. the lessons were nice. everything was nice. except my throat -.- i think i'm falling sick soon damn.

anw after school went home to bathe first before meeting jeremy to get presents. he was lateeee, he overslept. i think he's too tiredd. poor thing. haha we spent damn long trying to figure out what to get. then we spent even longer at macs trying to fold stars hahaha secret secret. it's related to the presents haha end up we failed, then went home at like close to 9pm. walking in the slight drizzle in orchard road at night is actually quite pretty (:

stupid akshay, he's telling the whole world i'm a bimbo! damnnn.

2010-08-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

TIME FOR A POST! (:

let's start from YOG opening! haha went for YOG opening ceremony on saturday with bro, gf and cousin may (: it was niceeee. though we were late, we got to see the athletes close-up! not bad ehh hahaha they are sooo friendly and handsome and cute omg. haha i personally loved the relay part, when the fire came (: damn nice. haha spinspinspin up the tower! yupp anw it ended quite late, like 10plus. and 30mins was spent watching the flag parade omg O: haha anw pics are up on facebook! too lazy to post here XD

sundayy.. nothing much i guess. was just doing homework to catch up on what i've missed on friday and saturday. haha but my dad is so distracting. keep watching YOG, then i'm distracted -.- hahaha well yeah that's all i guess.

mondayy! haha it was a funny dayy. i ended up being amelia's personal assistant! she damn pro can, i know her schedule better than her O: hahaha it was quite funny see her so blur tsktsk haha went for cip after school! it was a REALLY short one. haha like we ended before 6pm. and there's like practically nothing much to do really. i think some of the kids are so cool, they aspire to be scientists, engineer and florist next time! ohmann, i remember when i was young i wanted to be a doctor. then it changed ALOT along the way. and now, i guess i still wanna be a doctor! but i dunno specialise in what yet hahaha (:

today was another random funny day. it's just like totally bimbo day! haha got back econs case study test. 8/20. HAPPY! though i failed, it's an improvement from CTs omg. hahaha now to hope that the essay test was well done. yepyepp lectures were boring. chem tutorial was quite quiet today.

but maths was totally damn crap! like cause mr tsang never come, then no relief teacher also! O: then cw and amelia were busy doing chem, while jh and i were slacking. we were like the only 2 in the whole class not doing any work! haha and guess what we were doing, slapping each other and trying to not be bimbo O: hahaha we couldnt say "like", "omg", "totally" these 3 words. haha damn funny. and he came up with a sentence: "this is like totally omg!" haha omg i think we both siao already.

bio spa was okay i guess (: had quite alot of time left. AQ test.. well, hopefully i'll do well (: haha it's my longest AQ i've ever written! 3 points man. haha yupp training was fun too! jumped stairs. like ALOT. hahaha i bet we're all gonna get really toned legs after today XD yupp then went home by like about 7.30pm.

have been thinking and thinking and thinking. i think i need a break from floorball soon.

and i'm still really confused. so i'm sorry i cant make any decision or choice now ):

2010-08-15T01:21:00.003+08:00

JOANNE IS SAD. VERY SAD ):

so many things to do. and everything is so un-enjoyable now. everything is just so screwed up and bad. songs no longer make me happy. i have no idea what will. so many fake smiles and masks. i hate this, i want to turn time around. NOW.

i love doing what i did last year, but now that i no longer have to do it.. i feel lost.

really tempted and feel like resigning. but i can't.

2010-08-14T15:03:00.006+08:00

whee today is saturday (: i am so screwed hahaha why, because i havent done eom. it was due at 12pm today XD hahaha and all my tutorials not done yet. oopsss. i need mugging sessions! who wanna ask me out HAHA (:

kk updates! floorballholic! AWESOME! hahaha terra got knocked out damn early in the league. ohwell, hahaha it was fun nonetheless (: being referee on thursday made me admire referees even more! OKAY, next year, i'm gonna sign up for the referee course thingy :D

nothing much to update anw hahaha not like things are super wonderful or super bad. it's just.. okay lor. haha it was nice talking to you (: ANYWAY, going for yog opening ceremony later! HOPE IT DOESNT RAIN HAHAHA :D

i want a bigbig bearr hahahaha but it's damn ex omg. 70bucks for the 100cm one ): the white one is so prettyyyy, so sweet haha (:

haha and random much, BUT. i miss melbourne! the pictures make me wanna go back thereeeee (:

2010-08-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

this is my blog, so i guess i have the right to write what i feel. and you have no right to judge whatever you read.

have been thinking for quite awhile now, maybe things would be different or even better if i had not ran for any exco position. honestly, i think things are getting quite weird. sometimes, i'm stuck in between 2 groups. and sometimes, i dont know if i should speak or what. it seems as though i'm acting as a captain when i'm not. it's just awkward at times.

come to think about it. i must have been quite a failure then. heh, since it's so hard to get someone's attention.

was telling amelia, maybe i'm too used to how things were before. how things were carried out. and basically, just how the people around me were like. i miss how things were like before, staying back till late at night, going out scouting for jerseys and stuff. well, those were good memories eh (: cant believe one year went past so quickly.

well for now, let's just try and make things work! i wont give up so easily, no i wont.

and if any floorball member reads this feel like wth or anything, dont worry i expected it from you. but this is MY blog, so keep it here and it stays here.

on a side note, the only things i'm looking forward to now are floorballholic FINALS (OOM BAH BAH WE WILL MAKE IT THERE!) ISSF to adelaide! div2div2div2! and more div2! haha div2's coming, we need a goalie! i wanna make it to the team! :D hahaha training hard. yupyupp.

my eyes are red. pain and red.

'Cause i would die for you on skyway avenue;

2010-08-11T22:06:00.002+08:00

and now i realised how much i miss you. so many things to tell you, but i cant.

2010-08-10T21:56:00.002+08:00

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED OFF!

2010-08-10T19:48:00.003+08:00

today passed so slowly. like damn slow.

shopping today didnt seem enjoyable in a way. time passed so slowly. and taking the train home was so tiring for once i have no idea why. usually i wished train rides could be longer, but today i just wanted to get home so badly that the train ride was almost to the extent, torturous.

i'm sick and tired of all these! GO AWAYYY.

2010-08-09T16:56:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

long overdue photos from sfx youth night! but thenn, i realised i totally spammed terence's camera XD his whole album all my photos HAHA oops. ohwell, i only koped some nice ones (: the rest on facebook see hahaha. damn retarded can. i took like over 10plus photos with terence just to find a position which i look glam in XD

went to do pw today! met at novena to discuss some details first before going down to dhoby. interviewed quite a number of shop keepers. and like, so far we only managed to get 2 sponsors! siannn. we target like about 5 ): haha but anww had fun talking over lunch. and i realised ALMOST THE WHOLE IP LEVEL KNOWS MY SECRET. i'm damn sad nowww. like how in the world do they know! okayys anw damn cool. haha met matilda, kahyee and waner while doing interviews and stuff today. yepyepp.

cant wait for tomorrow! :D

2010-08-08T09:19:00.000+08:00

omg i'm damn sad. i'm sorry, it died.

2010-08-07T21:05:00.003+08:00

And i realised, you share all my happy thoughts (:

2010-08-07T15:44:00.004+08:00

ndc yesterday! haha terra was kinda screwed cause of some probs with PA. but in any case, it was scary dancing at the podium! but so saddd it's like the last ndc i'll take part in ): kk then supposed to have floorball photo taking after ndc. but turned out only the jh3s came. fail luhh. omgg i was damn sad can! it's like very sian to go for floorball trainings now. i dunno, i feel as if this team is starting to get quite.. i dunno what to say.

played piano with amelia while waiting for yuxian sijia and garry. end up only the 5 of us went out! went curry wok for lunchhh haha then island creamery for icecream! and garry says i eat alot T.T (though it's true) hahaha yupyupp then we spent damn long deciding where to go after that. wanted to watch movies but the timings suck. so we took whichever bus that came and it was 156! so we went bishan (: haha played arcade and shopped awhile there then went homeeee hahaha

had agape training today! AWESOME! hahaha amelia, siqian, chiawen and i were like ON TIME. coach damn smart la, booked the court at 11 then ask us come at 10 hahaha so we kinda had 2 hours for the price of one :D training was damn fun! it's like productive and fast. cool. hahaha amelia and my shots have improved due to our fantastic new sticks XD

lunched with the agape girls and coach which was fun! haha first lunch i ever had with them. didnt go for the springsfield match in the end cause had headache and agape ended late. so yeahh.

2010-08-05T22:04:00.003+08:00

sometimes life really sucks.
it just sucks. no reasons why.

ohwell, was listening to tank songs that i koped from jx (: REALLY NICE SONGS! :D hahaha flyflyfly fly away with balloons! ZOOM ZOOM hahaha everybody smile! (:

2010-08-04T21:10:00.005+08:00

hm.. how to say leh.

i dont know what i want now anymore.
everything is screwed. fml.
when i say everything, i mean EVERYTHING.

studies, floorball, pw, issf, and well, you.

i make comparisons. then i realised, hey you arent as good as i thought you are. but then again, i chose this path. i have given up trying to find out anything, because no one tells me anything either. time to move onnnnnn and not even think of the past. regrets? yes. but if given a chance to turn back time what would you do? i think i'll still make the same decision. as for now, i want you to focus, and if fate permits, it'll all work out (:

i dont wanna be so formal with you. awkwardness! i wanna be like last time, when i can talk to you about everything. i guess every girl needs a guy best friend right? ughh i cant type some stuff here. which is why i dont like having an open blog. AH, this blog may go into hibernation soon.

i think my recent posts arent making much sense. it's a mixture of feelings and emotions and people that i'm addressing (:

2010-08-03T22:26:00.002+08:00

before today, i was thinking.. where has that passion for floorball gone to? that excited feeling everytime i go for training. it's like i've kinda lost that happiness already. it's too soon for me. i never expected it to be gone so quickly.

and after today's team talk aka bonding session plus pizza for dinner, i feel motivated again! it feels like a new beginning (: okayy here's a secret, i named a folder for last year's floorball stuff "the new edge" because i believe we can make a change and create history! and now, for this year, i've named it "a new beginning" (: we can do this girls! i feel happy being in floorball again :D

2010-08-02T21:00:00.004+08:00

ever heard of 4hours pw marathon and end up being crazy?

well, that happened to my group last night! HAHA went yunwei's house to do pw. did from 7pm to 11pm. and towards the end, darryl and i siao already. end up screwing up facebook stuff hahaha XD yunwei also joined in the fun after we finally finished with pw. haha! it was super funny omgg.

today was okay (:

awkwardness. ugh, how can i get through to you i wonder, i never know what you are thinking. and what saddens me is i'm not trustworthy to you. and to you, thanks(: then to you, i appreciate the help.

and finally, you. i'm speechless. every time i look at you, somehow the words just cant come out. it's as if we're plunged into this room of darkness separated by a piece of glass from each other. maybe i'm thinking too much..

OHWELL, in any case. I AM SINGLE OKAY. stupid darryl -.- he actually said "hey, love" to me today, omg gross ttm. i dont want play anymore hahaha (:

2010-07-31T19:53:00.004+08:00

TODAY WAS FUNFUNFUN :D

training at rp today (: productive! hahaha but i'm still not used to my stick yet. couldnt really shoot well. but those that i actually managed to shoot, joshua says it's good! :D like fast hahaha yayy must train more! hahaha asked amelia to help me bring to valhall cut my stick, so hopefully it'll be easier to use now. after training, had a really long exco meeting. then some of the guys went to play an impromptu friendly with the smu guys hahaha cool.

sooo, after their friendly, went for lunch at subway, then INCEPTION! :D look at our long long ticket stubs (:

omgg like finally. hahahaha inception was really nice! the movie seemed quite short, but it's like 2hours plus. hahaha awesome show! yupyupp this outing, kinda not bad :D haha more outings coming ahead! (: floorball hearts :D

2010-07-30T23:15:00.004+08:00

hahaha i've deleted all the emo posts that i've posted when i locked my blog (: have been feeling really moody these few days. especially so in the mornings. i guess the stress is getting into me already. i think also partly cause, everyday i just go home and sleep! without doing ANY WORK. seriously, for one whole week hahaha XD i tend to chiong work over weekends (:

track meet on wed (: didnt win any medals, haha but it was still a great experience :D haha thursday had the floorball taiwan exchange thingy. OMG, i had to speak in chinese for 1.5hours. i almost died after that. hahaha and ndc dance rehearsal! the dance is actually quite addictive (: hahaha training, wasnt like training. i dunno why, i'm really quite disappointed with the team now. where it is now. it's like not even up to our nationals standard. what are we taking trainings as? a gathering place? to laugh and joke around? no. we have to change this attitude of ours NOW. if not it'll be too late.

today, had quite a productive pw meeting with ms ng. as quoted, our is "conceptually challenging" haha ohwell, jiayous bah joanne (: today i did work when i went home! maclaurin :D hahaha omg 2hours of maclaurin. damn tired already. hw for the weekend left: gp application question, econs activity 1 and essay! gogogo :D

tomorrow's gonna be a loooong day. training at rp, then floorball combined outing to the theatre! INCEPTION (: hahaha

hey you, i wanna go out with you! why are you so freaking busy ):

2010-07-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

sianness. but i cant blog here.

2010-07-26T21:31:00.004+08:00

joanne lai is in a good mood today (:

school was awesome today! (sense the sacarsm) hahaha kk exco meeting in the morning! IT WAS HILARIOUS CAN! i love how our exco can laugh and have fun and still get proper things done in the end (: hahaha jasmin was thinking sick when we were talking about econs O: haha damn funny la! yepyepp. so had 2 hours free, cause no pe (: haha stoned around in canteen.

then had gp! stupid jh kept squeezing my fats -.- he say my face, arms, legs damn fat hahaha oops. but his stomach not that skinny either XD gp was funnnn. hahaha i've always liked gp lessons though i dont do well in gp.. haha maths lecture! like normal lor haha just copy and understand at home. break was spent discussing floorballholic stuff and pw was alot on how to write wr when i havent even finish gpp -.- hahaha like wth. after pw had econs, which was depressing cause i think our class did damn badly for the case study test. i'm damn sadd, i understand econs, but i just cant apply! i'm really damn scared for promos now..

well anw, cip after school with amelia and jeremy! hahaha it has been a looooong time since the 3 of us went for cip together (: haha took a ride from jeremy's art teacher to clementi. reached 30mins earlier, so went mos burger to eat :D hahaha cip was really tiring! wahhh just 1.5hours of controlling the kids and i'm like damn exhausted. can tell jeremy and amelia also damn tired alreadyy. hahaha damn it, jeremy say i damn auntie while trying to control the kids! what's wrong with saying "children, settle down!" and "children, listen to teacher amelia!" hahaha -.- nothing wrong lorr. in any caseee, cip was still fun (: it's nice to lax once a week like that :D just playing with the kids haha. took bus back with jeremy! interesting convos. hahaha (:

it's scary how fast time is passing by! was just looking through at some photos taken at the beginning of this year. it seemed as though it was not long ago when i went for countdown and stuff, plus orientation all those. then in between, everything passed by so quickly. it seemed so long ago that i went melbourne ): was just telling jeremy how sad lives we lead. like no memories one ): OHWELL, looking forward to end of Alevels! hahahaha overseas with friends! :D

kk todayy, i shall go offline early. i love mondays (: though it's the first day of the week, it is a short and happy day! hahaha i hate tuesdays and fridays. i love mondays, wednesdays, thursdays, saturdays and sundays! HAHA XD kk i'm talking crap alreadyy.

2010-07-25T19:56:00.001+08:00

THIS SHALL BE A RANDOM POST!

I WANNA PLAY FLOORBALL WITH MY NEW STICKKK! I REALLY CANT WAIT :D ANDANDAND I KNOW THIS IS DAMN RANDOM, BUT I'M ALREADY THINKING ABOUT NEXT YEAR'S NATIONALS! I CAN TOTALLY SEE US IN TOP3 :D AHHHH I LOVE FLOORBALL (:

2010-07-25T08:57:00.002+08:00

I FEEL LOST.

yesterday was really tiring. training at rp, then agape at valhall. my contacts were like so dry i kept tearing ): yeahh and during agape training didnt really focus well. amelia and i concluded "it's a bad idea to go for agape after floorball training" hahaha anw bought new stick! well, it's a really old design already (: it's like the seniors kinda pink stick :D EXEL electra haha i bought it cause it still looks nice to me and it's freaking cheap! 30bucks (: can play for another 2 years hahaha XD

last night, i was too tired to do any work. my eyes hurt like crap telling me i should go sleep early. and i had a nightmare. i dreamt my bf turned into an evil monster and wanted to kill me. but then at the last moment, he sort of regained his sanity but then he was about to disappear already. disintegrate into thin air. i was so saddd! then i woke up! feeling sadd and emo. and now i feel like there's so many things to do, but yet i couldnt bring myself to do! joanne lai i hate your slacker attitude seriously. when have you become so slack -.- and i'm still really scared for pw. really really. ~~if i could, i'll go jump off a building to end my misery.~~

2010-07-23T23:16:00.003+08:00

that's it. that's the limit.

i couldn't stand it anymore. the tears just flowed down today.

cried today. cause of pw. for quite some time too. continued crying even when eating omg. so embarrassing haha i walked out of class, saw john lau, immediately turned around. didnt wanna let him see the unglam side of me. then amelia laughed at me! tskkk. hahaha but it was quite funny la. i finally let it all go after weeks of keeping it inside me.

today was a really tiring dayy. cold and windy too. haha lecture was actually survivable cause i just ignored the lecturer and read my own notes, then sms also hahaha oops. then had chem tutorial. not badd, i actually listened today (: haha and then econs! i'm really sorry, i just felt like sleeping halfway through ): it was quite funny at the start, like miss sng was asking us "who should miss sng date" hahaha then when it got proper, my mind kinda just auto shut off. shit la, i need to buck up on econs!

went for some excel workshop after school with amelia. it's like super lame can -.- waste my 2 bucks. hahaha then went library study awhile before pw meeting at 6. kk so pw meeting! 3 hours (: haha quite productive. i really hope this will be the last time i'm crying over pw.

SMILE PEOPLE!

floorball training at rp tmr! plus agape training at valhall! it's gonna be a floorball-filled day! :D

2010-07-22T21:51:00.003+08:00

i've decided to blog about the past few days (:

mondayy. HM it's a really long day. i cant really remember much hahaha i only know we stayed back to practice dance but learnt not much too haha (: tuesday! even longer day haha had 4x400 heats after school, AND WE QUALIFIED FOR FINALS! hahaha yayyy (: and floorball really rocks man! we all qualified for so many events! GREAT JOB PEOPLE :D yupp then went to watch the floorballholic pub stunt and then went out for dinner with amelia, garry, joe and bryan ho at adam road (: funfunfun hahaha gossiped quite abit XD by the time i reached home, i think i didnt do much then just went to sleep hahaha

wednesdayy was the floorballholic pub stunt. IT WAS GREAT! like really really. it's so unlike the other pub stunts (: hahaha yupp pe was quite fun playing frisbee (: thennn after school had some leadership workshop which was really fun yeah! HAHA i thought it would be boring, but it's surprisingly really fun! yeppp ohh it was the most epic day of my life. went home, ate, bathed, slept at 9. HAHA cool right. i slept at 9 like omg. means 9 hours of sleep (: hahaha today i was damn awake for most of the lessons can XD even with contacts haha not bad wor, i wore the whole day. 14 hours (: but when i took out my eyes went RED. hahaha but went down after like 1 minute or so. haha yeahh anw today i messaged alot of people. damn fun hahaha (: training today, huijun, karen and liying came! :D happy happy hahaha

hahaha i should be doing pw. SIANZ. note: i SHOULD be doing pw. means, i MIGHT not do in the end oops hahaha

2010-07-21T20:48:00.003+08:00

oh boy, it's hanging there like a thread.
one pull and it might break,
please give me an answer soon.
'cause the wait's killing me.

and i wonder, what's the feeling of falling in love like.

i hate this feeling of uncertainty.

makes me feel useless and tired,

i just wanna go and sleep all these away.

though work awaits, it's time for bed.

2010-07-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

lost. you're over. time for a new beginning (:

& maybe someday, i will find you again.

2010-07-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

nobody understands me. nobody really. cant you just let me sleep in peace. you think i dont care about my grades issit. must i cry in front of you about my grades before you are convinced that i care. and now you're using all these stupid reasons to argue with me. ban me from cca eh, ground me from going out eh, you think i'll grow smarter just by doing so. you've changed. you used to say try your best. i did now, and you scold me. just because i no longer come home being sad about my results, you think i dont care. well let me tell you, while you're sleeping soundly, i'm terribly crying and i cant go to sleep. you are being unreasonable to ask me give up things that i like. i hate having conversations like that with you. i already told you i can manage my time but do you listen? no you dont. fine, be that way. i'm just stupid. i cant match up. that's it. i cant be bothered anymore. i'll just prove to you i can manage.

2010-07-18T15:28:00.004+08:00

i hate bees.

okayy i love them for who they are (:

making honey for me to drink!

but it's scary when they can go to the extreme and be poisonous.

i have no idea why bees are so attracted to me.

every time during training at hockey D sure have bees come after me.

just now, again.

ahh, omg are bees smart?

cause i wanna tell them go away but they just wont!

scaryy.

i once read that bees are attracted to colours like yellow.

shit i'm wearing yellow now.

i think that's why.

go away bees.

one is enough.

i dont need another to repeat this whole thing again.

when i dont like something, i can be really nasty.

shoo bees!

2010-07-18T10:25:00.002+08:00

i shall update from thursday! (:

okayy so apart from the very badly done bio paper.. training in the afternoon was actually productive in a way! felt damn tired after that haha i guess playing with the seniors does help! haha karen liying jas kw and kenneth came back (: had fun playing with them! haha omg liying bought a new stick from valhall which is only 60plus dollars! I WANNA GET A NEW STICK TOO! i shall use my own money if my parents dont wanna subsidise me haha so went prince for dinner with the seniors after training. it was so funnyy, all the uni stories and army gay stories and kw and kenneth's ghost stories! apparently they had some haunted house kinda thingy for their uni camp and it's super scary omg. kw is a damn good actor can XD yupp only went home at 10plus. didnt have time to study for econs in the end oops.

fridayy i was really sad in the morning, cause of one line that mr tan said "i need to talk to you about your gpp later" wthh i really wanted to cry can. yeahh so turned out it was okay, just needed more details -.- aiya pw's screwed so that's it. end of story. haha skipp then there's econs test! um, i hope i pass! just pass can already. i need to pass all my econs tests now to at least get an S by end of the year! haha yupp had 400m heats after school! came in 2nd for my heats. floorball girls are damn cool! we were all either 1st or 2nd in the heats! we rock man!! hahaha i'm damn interested to find out my timing on monday (: haha so yup went for rock night after that! it was NOT BAD i must say. hahaha the bands are really NOT BAD. except for some who tried to sing taylor swift's love story. omgg i wanted to throw smth at him please haha yepp then went home at like 10.30 or so.

yesterday was damn cool. woke up and didnt feel like going for training! cause it was raining. damn shiok to sleep in can. but anw, still went for training luh. and guess what, valhall was freaking flooded! actually the whole kallang place was kinda flooded. hahaha the drains were like damn full, we almost couldnt cross the bridge XD but it was so fun! FIRST TIME I SEE FLOOD hahaha had fun playing in the water since i brought slippers hahaha yupp then we saw 唐育书! OMGG he's damn cute seriously. esp when he smiles OMGG my heart just totally flew away O: hahaha he's cuteeeee AHH. hahaha so end up valhall didnt open, so did the cage and stuff, so went for breakfast with amelia, yuxian, zhuer, petrina, melanie and audrey at subway. haha it was quite funny XD had funny convos hahaha

after that, went to fetch my bro back from airport! YAYY he's back! 3 weeks seemed so fast hahaha and not long later he's gonna fly to shanghai world expo again -.- bring me lehhh. hahaha went for my eye checkup again. not bad eh, this time no scratches (: haha then went for mass and sfx youth night! ahhh it felt so weird. like this very out-of-place feeling. thanks terence for keeping me accompany! (: i'm so sorry i'm not going for owl today haha next week k! ahh but on the other hand, i missed talking to quite alot of them too. it's like so much more fun to talk to them face to face then sms. actually that's only terence haha cause he's like the only one i actually kept in contact with after i left ): haha terence is annoying. keep asking me go back for owl. bleahh haha

so yeah youth night was really inspiring. i felt that warmth againn. the feeling of praising and worshiping God. simply amazing. i guess that's what made me join owl in the first place. but some things are making me keep my distance from owl too. nvmm i'll figure out soon (: hahaha yeahh went home aboutt 10plus again (: omg i just realised, nigel is from sfx, i couldve just asked him to follow me go for youth night DAMN.

so theree. 3 very long days! and guess what, I DIDNT DO ANY WORK AT ALL! shit la, k i should start doing now (:

2010-07-15T23:26:00.002+08:00

BIO. TERRIBLE. SAD.

plus, i studied so hard for it.

bleahh. damn sad cann, it's just that i don't show it.

sucks when i tried but don't do well ):

2010-07-14T22:37:00.002+08:00

MY EYES ARE OKAY! :D finally. hahaha today was such a slack day please. chem prac.. went through tutorial which junhao and i both didnt bring XD so we stoned awhile, then ended up playing the "cut the finger" game O: haha retarded much. then econs lecture i was damn high. couldnt stop talking. then so embarrassing can! suddenly whole lt so quiet. then i realised miss wong was looking at me cause i totally just turned around to talk to amelia hahaha then she gave me that "why are you talking" kinda look. oops. hahaha pe was quite fun (:

after break, had bio test (i think it was quite okay) haha then career talks! went for the CAAS one. omg i really want a scholarship damn badly. i went around taking all sorts of brochures and booklets and stuff. but i'm seriously considering defence psychology. I GET TO WORK IN THE ARMY AND WEAR A UNIFORM AND STILL DO SOMETHING THAT I LIKE (: hahaha and best of all, got scholarship de! haha so yeahh can try (: if not then actually got quite alot of nice occupations toooo! like tourism board sounds interesting. or like social services (: hahaha ohwell, so yeah went home after that.

went to check my eyes again, and it's finally recovered! back to contacts tomorrow afternoon. haha i made specs too though (: will be getting it on sat haha yupyup. omgg i was damn stressed just now over eom. realised the article i sent mr tan was crap. like really crap. and i couldnt find anymore articles cause my topic is so freaking hard to do. so end up, i decided to evaluate pictures. i have no idea if it'll work, but we'll see how this weekend (:

kk time to sleep. my eyebags are baddd.

2010-07-14T00:05:00.006+08:00

kk today's lessons were.. SIAN. i have no idea why i was so tired. i even slept during chem lecture and had a pretty nice dream (: hahaha got back quite a few papers now already. chem E, maths B, econs U, gp for now E. hahaha siann i hope i get an A for bio! :D

sooo had heats after school! was 4th in mine. damn sad. when i ran like super fast can! hahaha ohwell. anwanw went to watch the snyo concert with jeremy! we were like, JUST IN TIME FOR THE CONCERT. audrina and yunwei performed (: haha the wasp was nice! but the rest.. hahaha I REALLY DONT LIKE MODERN AND ROMANTIC PIECES AUDRINA! haha was quite bored XD but the last encore piece was really nice (: haha then went to have dinner and had fun talking about random stuff haha reached home not long ago! and i'm happyy cause i havent watched a proper concert in like a really long time :D

& tell me this ain't a dream;

2010-07-11T13:44:00.003+08:00

whee had fun yesterday (:

hahaha agape training first at valhall at 1pm. guess what, met amelia at dhoby then we took 16, then stupid 16 never go kallang cause of ndp! then it stopped somewhere at mountbatten mrt station, then we had to walk damn long to valhall. was like 30mins late in the end oops. haha yeahh but training was fun and productive. good (: haha trained till 3pm then went home by circle line.

k then went out with the seniors for dinner! met at marina square (: and it was SUCHHHH A TYPICAL OUTING PLEASE. the guys were like one side, and the girls another side. i never even talked to any of the guys XD hahaha ate at thai express, the seniors kept talking about uni stuff then i felt so left out haha then after dinner, went to bowl. well, i didnt bowl la! cause i was wearing skirt haha but half of them bowled. soonkiang is DAMN pro please. my idol :D he kept striking! shuai shuai shuai. hahaha yeahh we played till quite late. only left at like 11.30pm.

karen wants a girls' outing. MUST ASK ME K hahaha yesterday's outing was so faill. guys and girls are like... well you know. haha XD some of the seniors are going overseas! ohmann i'll miss them. haha i'm already missing all the after training dinners and gossips (: shall plan another outing soon! hahaha (:

2010-07-09T22:06:00.002+08:00

i felt so depressed on the bus today. HAHA school today was okayy as usual. i think bio might fail XD went through structured today, kinda didnt make it eh haha and econs is CONFIRM PLUS CHOP FAIL. my whole class, only 3 passed. haha but that wasnt why i was depressed. it's cause my phone went out of batt! i damn saddd. no music at all. then i slept on the bus, almost missed my stop hahaha

AH i feel so slack. watching nodame cantabile (: reminds me of the time at boarding school when amelia audrina and i would camp in one of our rooms and watch anime till like damn late eating cereals, cup noodles whatever hahaha quite fun actually (:

whee agape training tmr! finally, floorball again :D

like i said, it's good to take a break once in a while (: so i'm not angry. i think keeping a distance is good too. haha WHEE i'm happy today (:

2010-07-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SLACK HAHA shit la alot of things to do though ):

wheee i forgot to mention yesterday, miss yong's not our pt teacher anymore BUT she's my pe teacher now! HAHAHA damn funny. last time mr latif also became our pe teacher after he's not our pt teacher anymore hahaha yupp so had height and weight yesterday. omg i shrank. 147 -.- then after i took off my clip (cause i suspected miss yong didnt measure properly) I BECAME 146.5 WTH hahaha i refuse to admit. i'm still 148 :D hahaha but i lost 2kg though. i'm now 39kg hahaha (:

kk todayy was slack day! hahaha maths lecture we werent listening at all cause we already learnt what was being taught. then gc was kinda slack. and gp lecture was boringg ttm. haha then maths tutorial was in lt3. cw jh and i kept talking and laughing, never listen also hahaha then had bio which was boring. AND TWO EXCO MEETINGS IN A ROW. hahaha damn funny XD and then right we met our new pt teacher miss ong (: i can only say, she's quite an interesting person :D hahaha

i'm tired noww. my eyes have been feeling sore the whole day. i hope it heals soon (:

track heats next week. signed up for 3 events omg. hahaha might even go for open relays (: K TIME TO SLEEP :D

no picture today. too lazy to find haha

2010-07-07T22:51:00.003+08:00

my eyes hurt. well, not that it hurts, it just feels like something's poking my eye constantly. have to stop wearing contacts for a week! apparently both my eyes are slightly scratched ): had some medicine applied on my eyeball so hopefully one week later i'll be able to wear contacts again (:

yesterday was hell. hahaha simple as that.

morning gathering in the morning! WHEE loved it (: haha then had lessons. boring much. hahaha cant remember anything other that the inequality junhao came up with -.- and that for bio mcq i got 17/20. haha but i definitely remember PT. OMG TERRIBLE MAN. my legs are aching todayy. ran 10 rounds warm up. 5 sets suicides with core conditioning. supposed to do fan drill and cool down 8 rounds but we skipped that cause everyone was too tired. kk that's yesterday (: took bus home with yuxian and denise. had fun gossiping and catching up (:

todayyy quite boringg. chem prac was fun though hahaha went for the relationship thingy awhile and then went for eye checkup. which is how i found out why my eyes were red these few days and tired and suan and pain. siann i cant sleep now ): i keep thinking about.. something. something which i cant get off my mind everyday.

dear you, i wish that i'd love my piano more than you so that at least playing the piano could take my thoughts away..

2010-07-05T22:04:00.003+08:00

todayy was a happy day (:

birthday surprise for emily chua in the morning! AWESOME! hahaha though only me, sam, eunice, brenda, valerie and zhu er went, it was still fun! went to emily's house (: hahaha but had to wait for her downstairs instead cause we didnt wanna disturb her parents :D

haha yepyep then went over to novena to do pw! and went to city hall to "investigate" the area. hahaha well that's kinda boring. BORING PART OVER!

my aunts, nephews and niece came over. super noisy! i was so busy entertaining the small kids! hahaha i felt damn relieved to step out of the house later on (: went to meet chunwai at island creamery. haha bangs plus contacts. he couldnt recognise me! then waited for junhao, akshay and amelia to come. ALL OF THEM COULDNT RECOGNISE ME WITH CONTACTS O: haha do i look so different? XD yupp then andrew met us at holland v. jeremy too busy couldnt come. sooo, had dinner at nydc! AWESOME! damn niceee hahaha and quite funny XD we should go holland v more often. there are so many shops there and the ambience is really nice! yupp. went home about 9pm cause jh have curfew 9.30pm at boarding.

all in all, another fun dayy (:

2010-07-05T14:32:00.001+08:00

this is a really nice song! :D

2010-07-04T21:12:00.001+08:00

i hate memories that come back and haunt me.

for goodness sake, let me move on already!

2010-07-03T16:48:00.005+08:00

AGAPE FLOORBALL OUTING!

guess what. only connie and i went in the end! one by one in the morning everyone told connie they cant make it. hahaha so.. connie and i stoned at macs until the rain stopped then went to cycle! ohoh saw awyong there! like she could still recognise me! so cool haha yep along the way took some pics here and there haha then had subway for lunch then we went home (: simple outing. hahaha i really hope next time will have more people going!

i'm very lazy to take off my contacts ): hahaha i dont like to take out contacts. so ma fan. oops hahaha yeahh okay la fine i should go take it off soon (: anw amelia cheer up! life goes on :D

And if I could have just one wish I'd have you by my side;

2010-07-02T21:04:00.005+08:00

OMG. 10 Promises to my Dog is a MUST WATCH! just watched it online on youtube. it's SUPER touching! omgg i cried almost 10 times throughout the whole movie T.T and it's really cry until quite bad somemore. got a few more time but it's the mild tears forming one. seriously, it's a really really really nice show! my favourite show now (: never have any show made me cry so much before! shitt my eyes are swollen now, how to wear contacts tmr oops. next show i'm gonna watch when i feel like crying: Hearty Paws! heard it's quite touching too :D i shall see which show is nicer hahaha

i feel so much better after watching the show (: i remember i once posted, if i can put my contacts in my eye, if gpp gets approved (or at least the idea is there), and if we continue on this like this, my life is great. so currently, i think my life is great! :D

2010-07-02T17:35:00.002+08:00

zzzzz feeling so zzzzz now.AH just saw something then i feel damn pek cek. like wth luhhh. i'm damn sad noww. but cannot like that! cannot compare de (: everyone is different. i believe one day i will be the star person! :D i will prove to everyone that they are totally wrong about me. and that i will be so determined and motivated and will work damn hard to improve my skills (:

i hate this feeling of being inferior. because i know i aint supposed to be feeling like this!

today has been a saddd colddd day. haha pw was bleahh. then lectures made me feel like sleeping and sending random messages to kangaroos (: hahahaha oops. then there's chem which made me feel like i have alot of work to dooo. and econs which totally made me feel damn stressed and depressed. i have a really strong feeling, i'm gonna do damn badly for econs ):

you seem to be taking the lead now. well, guess i'm lagging. i shouldnt think so much (: i've had my time, so i should relax for awhile.. my time will come soon.

2010-07-01T20:39:00.003+08:00

i feel sad that it's after exams and i never go out and celebrate ):

it's so hard to find a time when everyone is free! like today, some still having exam. then next monday, some got council stuff. i really hope dinner will be successful! i wanna go out with them so badly! ): at least go out play one more time before i start studying againn. i feel really depressed going to school omg. school is like torture! sucks sucks sucks!

i wanna pon school tomorrow.

2010-06-30T13:23:00.002+08:00

YES! BIO'S OVER! I'M FREEEEEE!

hahahaha bio was surprisingly not bad. at least i think it's the easiest paper so far (: went home at like 10.30am! damn early cann. and it feels kinda weird in a way. i mean like, last time after ass week, we would always go out as a class or smth to island creamery. i still remember sue-ann and i saying it'll be a termly thingy to go island. but now it's like.. all different combis and stuff. and then after exam it's like.. who to go out with man. haha ohwell, just some random thought (:

i'm damn bored now. suddenly dunno what to do at home XD this is what i call a REAL HOLIDAY. thinking about nothing. just slacking (: haha shall try baking chocolate cupcakes tomorrow. hopefully it's successful! first time trying out and i have no idea if the recipe is good anot. so.. haha we'll see (:

i'm damn scared later. but i HAVE to do it. i dont wanna waste another 50bucks. AH please please please let me do it quickly and get it over and done with. then i'll be a pretty little girl (: hahaha omgg nervous breakdown!

2010-06-29T20:25:00.004+08:00

OMG YES ONE MORE DAY TO FREEDOM! actually, not even one day! it's like.. 14hours to freedom (: hahaha happy happy!

so chem today.. KILLER. seriously, now i understand why the seniors always say nj chem siao one. ohwell. BUT i still think i did okay. omg am i crazy or what, i found chem easier than maths! shit. if come out my chem does worse than maths, then i'm talking crap here now XD was totally rushing through the paper! mcq was like RUSHH. dunno. skip. no time. put B. hahaha yeahh then paper 2 quite BLEAH. stupid enthalpy of combustion all those stupid crap. and balance half equations omg. hahaha give up man.

yayyy bio sucks ttm! omg damn high now i dunno why. must be cause i slept too much. i feel so guilty now. shit laaa how to study bio in um 3hours! MEMORISE to be exact. okay after blogging i will go memorise as much as i can and do the revision package. i will sleep by 12midnight (:

i feel kinda bad in a way. i mean like, i dont wanna hurt anyone. but it's unavoidable. siannn.

2010-06-28T23:12:00.005+08:00

i'm damn stressed now!

it's like, maths was BAD. like really baddd ): i'm damn depressed after the paper. didnt do about 25marks. i really didnt know how to do T.T why am i so stupid omg. and the feeling that you're going to fail or at least do so much worse than everyone else sucks. and when i told my mum i think i'm gonna fail maths, she keep on nagging at me for not studying harder blah blah blah. say i whole day sms go online whatever shit. but not my fault! i DID study! i studied very hard somemore! considering how much i didnt listen in lectures and lessons (which i KINDA regret now) i think it's like not bad already. AH SIANNNN ):

and chem! omg. i'm like so unmotivated to study can. I HATE EXAMS IN THE AFTERNOON! stupid sh2s. steal our hall T.T omggg irritating ttm. it's like wake up in the morning, dont feel like studying, go home so late, study what study. damn. i attempted the past year chem paper. i got like 30/80. like omggg. SIANNN! and i'm totally not in the mood to read my notes OR memorise anything! sometimes i think i'm so freaking smart and 假厉害 then i end up screwing myself during the exam ): joanne is not in a good mood now!

i cant make up my mind to sleep and continue studying tmr morning, or to continue studying now and sleep in later tmr. i'm damn saddd ): but i MUST pass tmr's paper! no more failing for me! (easier said than done omg) i dunno what to say but SIANNNN. my mood is totally like. SIAN-ness ttm.

i decided i need to start posting pictures! my blog's getting kinda dull.

secretcode:euihyaort(:

2010-06-28T09:59:00.004+08:00

HI PEOPLE.

i am officially sickkk!

caught the flu bug from my mum. apparently my dad also caught it. so we're all sleeping in different rooms now (since my bro's in cambodia). yeahhh omg sucks! of ALL times. to get sick now! omgg later my nose keep running during maths how! i need to prepare TISSUE! siann i hope i can get through these 3 days! i dont mind falling sick on thursday and get mc for friday (: omgg damn bad. hahaha ohwell. i should be mugging now but i just have no mood to! dieeeee.

yesterday woke up at 4am to send my brother off. omg damn tired can! then went over my grandma's house and i totally just slept there. then went for mass at 7am at church of divine mercy! NEW CHURCH! hahaha it's damn nice (: then after that went giant for awhile before going home and sleeping for another 3 hours. woke up, watched tv, did maths, had piano (which was damn fun! played disney duets and broadway duets) and continued doing maths and yeahhh. i think i'm gonna fail maths because i failed the 2008 paper. and i just passed the 2009 paper. so... not much confidence. oops.

2010-06-26T19:58:00.003+08:00

OMGG I'M SLACKINGGG BECAUSE I AM ON TIME ACCORDING TO MY MUGGING SCHEDULE! :D

hahaha cool right. 5days for maths, 6days for bio and 3days for chem (:

tomorrow, i will just study maths! finish up the practice papers.
monday, i will do the chem practice paper too and memorise the definitions.
tuesday, i will ATTEMPT the 18page long bio revision package (i doubt i'll finish) and memorise and mugmugmug like shit.
wednesday, I WILL BE PLANNING WHAT TO DO ON THURSDAY (:

jiayous joanne! you can get through these few days!

time to read up on copland. why must you write the cat and mouse so that now i have to read up on you and your song. but it's a nice song btw (: